To understand reality is not the same as to know about outward events. It is to perceive the essential nature of things. The best-informed man is not necessarily the wisest. Indeed there is a danger that precisely in the multiplicity of his knowledge he will lose sight of what is essential. But on the other hand, knowledge of an apparently trivial detail quite often makes it possible to see into the depth of things. And so the wise man will seek to acquire the best possible knowledge about events, but always without becoming dependent upon this knowledge. To recognize the significant in the factual is wisdom. Dietrich Bonhoeffer:


Life is a train of moods like a string of beads; and as we pass through them they prove to be many colored lenses, which paint the world their own hue, and each shows us only what lies in its own focus.---RALPH WALDO EMERSON
Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.---ABRAHAM LINCOLN
There is neither happiness nor misery in the world; there is only the comparison of one state to another, nothing more. He who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness. We must have felt what it is to die, that we may appreciate the enjoyments of life.---ALEXANDRE DUMAS
“It is not because the truth is too difficult to see that we make mistakes... we make mistakes because the easiest and most comfortable course for us is to seek insight where it accords with our emotions - especially selfish ones" --- Alexander Solzhenitsyn quotes (Russian novelist, Nobel Prize for Literature (1970), b.1918)
“Wisdom ceases to be wisdom when it becomes too proud to weep, too grave to laugh, and too selfish to seek other than itself.” ---Kahlil Gibran

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Childless Mother1

I was shocked last Tuesday when one of my 22-year-old graduating students came  to my room for the Final speaking test. Her face was all bruised and scratched! Evidently, there were three nail scratches on her face running right under her eye to the neck. In a second, I thought she had a motorcycle accident, whew! (Perhaps my judgment was influenced by two students who've been absent for classes due to car accident.) Then I asked her what happened to her face, in a teary eye she told me she had a fight with her classmate in the morning and it happened in the classroom.

I was speechless as it was the first time I heard supposedly adult students in a fight and no, not in the university. I maybe can think it's possible for kids but for grown ups and graduating group, it seems it doesn't make sense! Much more that I know this group are brilliant and hardworking , it's just unbelievable!

I was aware that my blood pressure went up. I asked my student who did those to her and added it shouldn't be tolerated. She should have the incident reported to the police and demanded for medicine support. I was so concern that it was her face that was hit and "destroyed" and it can't be good, it is not and  never at any time and  for any reason! It's so mean and despicable for one to do it  to the other and that means there should be justice.

I didn't inquire further, I just couldn' emotion started to be on its peak.  I  just let her go home and told her to  rather have the test next week, she was both physically and psychologically unstable  she better get a rest, that she deserved.

Saturday, February 20, 2010


I got up early today, didn't have any problem sleeping despite the discomfort of this cough I still have.. As soon as I woke up I logged on blogger to continue working  on the layout. Great, the morning "handwork" did pay off in some way and little did I notice that it was already past nine and I hadn't taken a shower yet.

I got to work at exactly ten, that made today a 20-minute-ride rather than the usual. I wasn't late, just on time. Thanks to the cab driver who was sensitive enough to his passenger catching up the time and of his driving safely despite the speed.

Gave an exam to my first class of the day,  my cute kids of nine to eleven-year-old group. The emphasis was on the lexis we have studied particularly  adjectives as "interesting, boring, tiny, exciting, dirty, terrible and proud".

I read out loud the first  question as this "I am blank to be Thai" and I solicited what was the best word for the blank. One eager student stated "Teacher, I am dirty to be Thai'. So I replied, "not really, hmm.. it should be something good, it couldn't be dirty could you please try another answer?" Then another one added,  "Teacher, terrible!. So there, I repeated the sentence as this " you mean, I am terrible to be Thai????" With of course facial expression intending to lighten the mood, the rest laughed and that started the fun. Of course, after the chuckle everybody yelled "PROUD". I'm proud to be Thai."

When the written test was done and while going over with the test papers I thought it would be helpful to reinforce the lexis and should be included in the speaking test. I arranged then for the students to come up with sentences using the vocabulary apart from the oral test coverage.

Everybody did well except one naughty smart student who I asked to redo the activity as I couldn't get his sentences exactly. To cut the story short, he then recited his sentences. The last one was on the word "terrible". He then said, "Teacher V is terrible".  Hahahahaha! I relayed I couldn't accept the sentence as I didn't like it and he had to give me two sentences instead. Hmmmm hahaha!

That was joyful, we all know students do some things to perk the teacher up, in my case, I love it as it shows that in some way students are getting comfortable with the teacher aside from gaining confidence and if they do, they can express better likewise learn positively . One thing I do not want in class is for the students to be  both distant and reserved. I always get the option for them to be actively participating in the activities and doing their job well, much more on better comprehension after all, classes are for that purpose I believe.

I love these students as by time  and somehow,  they are becoming like me.....yes.......T-E-R-R-I-B-L-E! LOLOLOL!

Friday, February 19, 2010


Funny, been here for a time but still I can't make the layout the way I want it, I always find myself scratching my head and a bit upset. Don't know perhaps my patience doesn't really rely on this kind of's grrrrrr..grrrrrrr for now.

To a degree, perhaps it's best to write whatever is it that may come out from wherever, I can't say from my head as I'm not thinking right now, no, no, I don't want to.,.just grrrr ...grrrrr... LOLOLOL!

Anyway, playing this VCD  I got the last time I went home, the songs are oldies they sound good at least there's a moment where I can go mellow despite the grrrrrrssss.

I hate it when I want  something to be done but I just don't have the capability of doing it, grrrrr, I want one and I can't, so I give up just grrrrr...the feeling is kinda wasted, waste of time, idle, nothing, blank, pointless and useless,,,grrrrrrrrr...

This is enough I should divert my focus and do something that lightens the feeling, I still have to see what will that be...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr......................... hope the writing helps.

Just sharing my mood right now, I can't sleep but I'm feelin' better

 I'll Take Care Of You 

I'll take care of you
Don't be sad, don't be blue
'Cause I'll never break your heart in two
'Cause I'll take care of you

I'll kiss your tears away
I'll end your lonely days
All that I'm really trying to say
Is I'll take care of you

I want you to know
That I love you so
I'm proud to tell the world you're mine
I've said it before,
I'll say it once more,
You'll be in my heart 'till the end of time

I'll take care of you,
Don't be sad, don't be blue
Just count on me your whole life through
And I'll take care of you

(Repeat III)
(Repeat IV except the last two words)

And I'll take care,
I'll take care of you...

 Don't Know Why 

I waited 'til I saw the sun
I don't know why I didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But I'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road along

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind

Something has to make you run
I don't know why I didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come
I don't know why I didn't come

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Ignorance is bliss, still.

I 've written a blog of the same title and now I find myself writing again. I don't know exactly, I'm beginning to realize that this world is so huge that  all of it is beyond the scope of our thoughts, even imagination. I'm too small compared to the universe and so the things I know and I've known aren't that comparable to earth has to offer. I think.

The quest for knowledge is there, to be informed, to know but these things like human existence aren't permanent. Even the truth changes as it may be true at certain times but some don't last, they just do.Facts may be facts at a time but they may not be the same tomorrow.

 Then what are the things we have to know then and which we should disregard? Like nature, I think we are blessed with abundance  from food to the many things that support our daily living but then we can't have it all, why? life is short and we don't need them all. We have different desires and we don't have the same goals.

Some people have different perspectives on ther ultimate satisfaction, others have their own set of ambitions and ideals that  they work for. We can't simply judge them as we are different from one another, regardless of blood and of nationality . We are all unique at the same time we are similar to the rest and that unite us as human beings. We're lucky our mentation is perhaps better than the other creatures, though yes, we for now  I  believe,  have the best intellect among all the animals.

What's my point? We need to be informed at the same time expand our horizons for meaningful existence and so we have to cultivate our hearts and spirits for better living. I guess we are nothing without soul, without compassion, understanding and kindness. Humility has also its say, and .... common sense.

We choose to believe what accords to our personal views and at some point attitudes and dreams but it doesn't mean we have to abhor others way of thinking, it's theirs, the rest aren't the same as how one thinks. They have their own objectives, we have our respective aims.  I remember the more one improves his knowledge, the better he understands supposedly; however; it could be the other way  as the more one gets informed , the higher a person's expectations not just to himself.

Ignorance isn't a disease after all, it may cause one to fall down or one to be fine, just fine. After all, we have the power to reject what to know and not, and that is on what makes us BETTER as each of us think, would.


Whew! I miss writing and I feel a bit sorry for not getting my hands on blogs.

The month started out crazy, for the first time ever I lose control in classes. I oftentimes get caught up laughing right during classes but last February the first, my architecture students were just wonderful. As far as I can remember we talked on quantities, at one point discussing buying stuff and the language of it. One student in a loud voice uttered a piece of underwear that caught my attention. To add, a male student  spoke on a pack  of Modess as well. Of course, all burst into laughter and that included me.

I couldn't control myself so I turned my head on the board laughing and for seconds heck, I just couldn't stopped myself until  I cried to tears . I thought I could die of it, chuckling to death in other words so I decided to walk out from the room told my students to excuse me for a second and ran to the ladies room. Sooner, I found out that I didn't have any tissue with me making it hard to dry up my tears, then  a former student of mine came in and she was so shocked looking at her ex teacher in tears, Hahaha!, I wonder what was she thinking on the scene, she might have  thought of something! I breathed hard, pinched myself just to  manage to be calm. Then I was fine, no longer in a laughing mood so I headed back to the classroom. And this happened right at the very first day of the month. Yes, it was special thinking it was a bit of disarray yet the month started right - happy! :D

On the contrary, February is a busy time for reviews and Finals. Just this week I had this super time arranging the coverage for exams and so the review. It wasn't that easy to plan out the lessons to be covered as much as possible, it should be simplified and attainable enough. I didn't quite feel nice last Monday, I had migraine until my health finally gave in yesterday. I had it all, fever, cough and headache. Headed to bed as early as four o'clock in the afternoon as soon as I was back home. I'm doing  a lot better now I guess, at least the fever is gone and so the headache, the cough is still here though. I may get myself some cough medicines if I can manage to get out, for now I'm more concern on getting a good rest and more food to eat hehehe!

Oopps, how was the valentine's day? It was a work day so had all my time at work, then headed for grocery. After that, I had  a good sleep. We did have great pink valentine at work though and of course I took some pictures. Thought it was a great idea of the staff coming up with chocolates and valentine decors for the day. They also gave away blank pink cards for the students to do, the students did like them for sure :D