Thanks God I'm feeling better now, the past two weeks have been very hard for me being sick, last Thursday was my first experience to be totally ill and this week's Monday was the first ever as well of me not being able to say anything. I got laryngitis as the effect of the FLU I got last week, my voice was lost and it was worse having a hard cough at the same time. Oh, well at least I am a bit better now though still struggling with cough.
Today is a no-meat-Friday for Catholics. I started this day with pineapple juice, fresh brewed coffee and wheat toasts. I might have that meal only for today I don't have plans yet to go out of my room. I haven't fully recovered yet.
My laptop is my best friend as despite the situation I can deal with it without worrying at all, and the sickness doesn't stop me from reading, interacting and learning things from time to time. I've had had a few discoveries in the past days. I have learnt enough and I realized better things so to speak. For now, I still have a lot of questions in my head why some things happen and why do some people are far worse than one could imagine. I looked into myself and suddenly I felt there is this something that I want to accomplish.
There is a feeling of inadequacy and I am getting another ambition. Why do I desire to get an MBA? I love teaching, I'm good at it. I fantasize exquisite cooking, baking, gardening and some other stuff working on my senses at the same time there is this longing of me of getting back to school.
What has been happening with my life isn't really favorable, I cannot deny the frustration. I plan well, I know I do unfortunately some things didn't get well as I designed not as the result of my actions but of the people around who made some of them a failure. I'm not passing blame it is just is. Believing is a good thing and I have just proven that sometimes we tend to believe the wrong persons. We commit mistakes due to believing, having a bad judgment despite having good reasons, intentions and motivations do not guarantee good results or even the fulfillment of one's goal. It's like investing and being happy about it only to find out that the one you've been invested in has been nothing else but FRAUD from the very beginning.
I still have to reclaim my goals, make another plans, for now I want to move forward, get better education if this means going back home to start fresh I should be ready and willing to take a step soonest. Yes, MBA. I mean it.